I'm Just A Kid Pretending To Be An Adult

Yesterday:

~Mocha Latte Shake - 5g carbs
~1 Stick of string cheese - 1g carbs
~Cashews - 12g carbs
~Eggs with bail cream sauce and broccoli w/ cheese - 10g carbs
~Sugar Free Hershey's Special Dark Chocolate mini bar - 4g carbs

Yeah, I ate pretty much the same thing yesterday as I did the day before. But guess what?? I hit the 10lb mark today!!

Besides the weight loss, I'm having a bit of a rough time. First of all, the old cat my mom took in died last night. It was not unexpected, but very sad. I intentionally tried not to get close to him, but I still cried. Eddie was a good boy.

Second, I have become a money pitt. Since getting married, I have racked up medical bills (I have NEVER had any kind of medical bill in my life) and my car has decided it wants some attention too. The window got stuck half way up, half way down a couple weeks ago. It cost $350 to fix. Now, my battery could possibly be bad. I have had to get a ride to work 2 mornings this week. If it's bad, it will cost $160 to get a new one. Apparently the new beetle batteries are expensive and a pain in the butt to change. I am very grateful that we are financially stable and able to handle these situations without going totally broke.

Third, the paranoia gets worse. I'll just go out and say it...I quit taking my birth control pills a few weeks ago. So now, I am not on ANY Rx medications...I'm all natural. But anyway, my paranoia is maybe a combo of lack of prozac and hormones going crazy? I don't know, but this is not fun, but I have to laugh at myself. Last night, I was scared to eat the last 4 eggs we have. After I ate them, I was so worried because I didn't have anymore eggs!! How ridiculous is that?? It's not like I can't go get more. It gets better. I was in bed reading the news about the China earthquake last night. I am now paranoid that we are getting close to the end of the world. Specifically, that we will be hit by an asteroid. Omg, how bad is this? I'm embarrassed that I'm even typing this out for everyone to read. I hope I'm giving someone a good laugh. It is weird, my heart is telling me I should be worried about this stuff, but my head is saying "WTF, snap out of it". That is why I think it might be hormone related. Oh, and I was outside loving on my plants when I heard the bushes in our yard rustle. It was after dark, so I couldn't see anything, but Yogi growled at the noise (at least that means I wasn't hallucinating). I freaked out and ran to Terry. He got a flashlight and looked around for me, of course, there was nothing there. Guess what my first stupid thought was? It was the robbers trying to look into our sunroom to see what they could come by and steal. Again, I FEEL paranoid, but I KNOW I shouldn't be. Yes, it has to be hormones. BTW, Terry is an amazing husband...he hasn't gotten frustrated with me at all :-D

Terry is going floating this weekend...I can only imagine what kind of things I will make up to be worried about. I think I need some chocolate.